blacked out icons are deprecated socials (i no longer regularly use them)

this is where i put my achievements that i'm proud of

trombone champ - top 10 in toottally global (peak) (3/5/24)

i guess i'm also top 1 in thailand lol


pump it up - gargoyle s20 pass (9/12/23)

hard chart, chart hard


getting over it - sub 5 mins + 50 wins

super hexagon - world's first hyper hexagonest at 2x speed (22/5/22)


celeste - farewell golden + 202 berries (14/8/24)


maimai finale - first S rank on level 13 (8/1/23)

video provided is from 31/3/24


effectTime to expected onset of and maximum effectPermanency if hormone therapy is stoppedtime that i received effectsa
Decreased sperm production/fertilityUnknown, >3 yearsReversible or permanent0.1 months (3 days)b
Breast development and nipple/areolar enlargement2–6 months, 1–5 yearsSurgically reversible1 month: onset effectsc
2.9 months: tanner ii?
Decreased sex drive1–3 months, TemporaryReversible2 monthsf (temporary)
Decreased spontaneous/morning erections1–3 months, 3–6 monthsReversible2 months?
Redistribution of body fat in a feminine pattern3–6 months, 2–5 yearsReversible2-3 months?d
Decreased muscle mass/strength3–6 months, 1–2 yearsReversible2-3 months?
Changes in mood, emotionality, and behaviorUnspecifiedReversible2.5 months? 4 monthse
Cessation/reversal of male-pattern scalp hair loss1–3 months, 1–2 yearsReversibleN/A
Voice changesNoneNot applicableN/A
Widening and rounding of the pelvisUnspecifiedPermanentN/A?
Decreased penis sizeNoneNot applicableN/A?
Decreased prostate gland sizeUnspecifiedUnspecifiedN/A?
Thinning/slowed growth of facial/body hair4–12 months, >3 yearsReversibleTBD
Softening of skin/decreased oiliness and acne3–6 months, UnknownReversible3-4 months?
Erectile dysfunction and decreased ejaculate volume1–3 months, VariableReversibleTBD
Decreased testicle size3–6 months, 2–3 yearsUnknownTBD
decreased metabolism??TBD

atime of effect onset is measured by first notice
bsperm production just completely ceased within like 2-3 days
cnipples owie
dmy mom claims that my arms and legs have gotten smaller
eit's easier to cry, but this might actually just be because i feel more comfortable in my body as a girl now (and also the internalized "boys don't cry" slowly going away) yeah no, i'm 4 months in and i cry alot more, and alot more easily.
fthe urge doesn't come up as often. don't get me wrong, the climax still feels amazing, but i don't do it right after i wake up as often anymore
Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feminizing_hormone_therapy#Effects

instead of spending an ungodly amount of time explaining all of my interests like a typical trans girl dork, im just gonna list all of them in my website
games/hobbies that have highlighted text means that i'm still active in the game/community
last updated: 29 december 2024

game-related

rpg related
undertale / deltarune
        i discovered the fandom around 2017, basically 1 year before deltarune came out. asriel was and is still my fav character, and i still love the game and am looking forward to playing the rest of the deltarune chapters.
        i don't think ralsei will turn evil, but anything can happen, so right now i'm just bracing for the worst that can happen in the upcoming chapters.
• oneshot
        i think i started playing oneshot in mid 2019? back then i used to have a massive crush on plight (and i'm pretty sure he made me realize that im gay(?)). i have a few merch from the game, like 3 shirts and a niko plushie
omori
        started playing the game around february 2021. weirdly enough, i connected with sunny more than i thought i would. back then, i was still really trying to figure out who i am. like oneshot, i've bought a few merch like eggplant plushie and a shirt from the game.
i don't think basil is a bad person overall even if he literally hanged mari to fake the suicide to hide the accident.
• stardew valley
        to say that stardew valley didn't have a role in me realizing that i'm trans would be lying. i've heard of stardew valley for quite a while, and only started playing around 2021. immediately, i equipped the skirt because i thought it would be cute! i did not yet at all understand why i felt like this haha
as of 12 april, i've yet to achieve perfection or even finish the community center, but one day i will. this game sinks so much time out of my life, i barely play it anymore because i have other things i wanna do so much
abigail best girl abby4life
rhythm games
osu!
        my account
• adofai
• rhythm doctor
trombone champ
        i do not think trombone champ is a rhythm game, but it is here for clarity sake.
maimai
pump it up
        right around the end of december 2023, i was grinding Ss out of maimai, and i started feeling bored. i then asked myself "what if i started playing pump it up instead?" as the machine was right next to me. after i got an S on my first level 13 on maimai finale, i completely jumped ship.
        i think it's clear to alot of people that my progress was alot faster than for other people. by my 3rd day, i would've already passed my first s10, and in a week, my first s15 already.
my goal for 2023 was to pass a level 20 in either levels. i passed my first s20 on september 10th, and my first d20 19 days later.
some more notable passes are gargoyle full s20 and 86 full d23, which i've made a video out of.
as of now, my last and only goal is to pass paradoxx s20, which i have not passed yet. i've gotten a few broken As, but that's about it.
        pump it up is a great game. gets me exercising, and i managed to prove to myself and many people that i am not a weak girl. i also did not let hrt pull me down, as i pushed myself to get gargoyle full s21 and 86 full d23. i've made many friends here, and i wish for many more awesome memories from this game, and the community.

other games
celeste
        i'll write more about celeste later, but to say that it's my favorite game is an understatement.
minecraft
ㅤㅤ- hypixel pit
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤi plan to type more about this minigame, but here's my player profile, i guess
ㅤㅤ- mcsr
ㅤㅤ- texture packs
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤi plan to type more about my niche and bad hobby about texture pack making, but here's my profile, i guess
• growtopia
• super/open hexagon
        hey did you know that i beat the last level in super hexagon at twice the speed? :D
• five nights at freddy's series
geometry dash
• phasmophobia
• unpacking
• terraria
• getting over it
i got a p good sub 5 run of getting over it :3 have a look!
i also got 50 wins


other

tech related
• keyboard
        i'm a bit of a nerd haha, as much as i would love to build my own keyboard, it's a little bit too expensive. my needs are also very specific, and the only keyboard i was able to find that fit me perfectly was nuphy air96. it had low profile, mechanical, tactile switches, and 96% keyboard layout.
• keyboard layouts
        i'm currently typing on "colemak dhcf", aka colemak with the dh variant and the keys c and f swapped.
• everything apple stuff
• computer tech
language related
        it's better if you look at my wikipedia userpage for my info on languages.
• linguistics
        i know an abnormal amount of linguistic information like [paper couldn't think of any examples so this is here]. my knowledge in linguistics is also put into making conlangs; see below.
        i'm thinking of getting a degree in linguistics, if i can
• conlanging
        if you don't know what conlanging means, don't bother. 🙂
        one of the conlangs that is the closest to polished is itioma no kami. i'm currently working on a (draft of a) wikipedia article for itioma no kami, but it's currently very unfinished. i'm also working on another (currently unnamed) personal artlang, along with a simplified english, and an (to be discarded) auxlang.
other
• origami
        i got inspired to start doing origami around early 2023 when i joined a server with an origami channel in it.
        have a look at some of my builds!:
        this one i made out of 50 baht banknotes (for a total of 50$)! it unfortunately collapsed on its own, but here's an image!
        have 3 other miscellaneous builds just cuz i think they're cool!: 1 2 3
        this one is like really big
        and this one was made out of thai lottery papers!
• drawing
        please don't judge my art harshly 👉👈 link
• rubik's cube/cubing
• piano
        as with most asians, i was put into piano lessons when i was in elementary. i think my parents said it was because i was playing a piano game app, and some cousin/my parents' friends thought i was actually playing the piano. so, they had a bright idea to let their yet to be daughter get into piano lessons.
        i would love to record myself playing some piano songs, but as of february 2024, i haven't yet gotten back into playing the piano nor have i uploaded any of my playing yet. i may, soon.
        i've started playing the piano once again! :D here are some recordings! 1 2
        more is soon to come, so subscribe and see when i'll post another piano cover!
• learningblocks
        if you know, you know. if you don't know, don't bother 🙂
• wikipedia
• anime
check out my profile on myanimelist to get a list of animes i've watched!
• music
        just any songs in this playlist
        along with a few pop here and there, most are actually just game music.
• pen spinning