blacked out icons are deprecated socials (i don't regularly use them)
any accounts not listed are either not mine or too insignificant

this is where i put my achievements that i'm very proud of

trombone champ - top 10 in toottally global (peak) (3/5/24)

i guess i'm also top 1 in thailand lol

pump it up - gargoyle s20 pass (9/12/23)

hard chart, chart hard

getting over it - sub 5 mins + 50 wins (29/12/24)

pump it up - paradoxx s21 pass (12/2/25)

over a year in the making, my proudest achievement by far

super hexagon - world's first hyper hexagonest at 2x speed (22/5/22)

celeste - farewell golden + 202 berries (14/8/24)

maimai finale - first S rank on level 13 (8/1/23)

video provided is from 31/3/24

super bomb survival - 100% (8/5/24)

effect	Time to expected onset of and maximum effect	Permanency if hormone therapy is stopped	time that i received effects^a
Decreased sperm production/fertility	Unknown, >3 years	Reversible or permanent	0.1 months (3 days)^b
Breast development and nipple/areolar enlargement	2–6 months, 1–5 years	Surgically reversible	1 month: onset effects^c 2.9 months: tanner ii?
Decreased sex drive	1–3 months, Temporary	Reversible	2 months^f (temporary), 1~ year
Decreased spontaneous/morning erections	1–3 months, 3–6 months	Reversible	2 months?
Redistribution of body fat in a feminine pattern	3–6 months, 2–5 years	Reversible	2-3 months?^d
Decreased muscle mass/strength	3–6 months, 1–2 years	Reversible	2-3 months?
Changes in mood, emotionality, and behavior	Unspecified	Reversible	~~2.5 months?~~ 4 months^e
Cessation/reversal of male-pattern scalp hair loss	1–3 months, 1–2 years	Reversible	N/A
Voice changes	None	Not applicable	N/A
Widening and rounding of the pelvis	Unspecified	Permanent	N/A?
Decreased penis size	None	Not applicable	N/A?
Decreased prostate gland size	Unspecified	Unspecified	N/A?
Thinning/slowed growth of facial/body hair	4–12 months, >3 years	Reversible	N/A?^g
Softening of skin/decreased oiliness and acne	3–6 months, Unknown	Reversible	3-4 months?
Erectile dysfunction and decreased ejaculate volume	1–3 months, Variable	Reversible	6-12 months / N/A?^h
Decreased testicle size	3–6 months, 2–3 years	Unknown	TBD
decreased metabolism	?	?	TBD

^atime of effect onset is measured by first notice
^bsperm production just completely ceased within like 2-3 days
^cnipples owie
^dmy mom claims that my arms and legs have gotten smaller
^e~~it's easier to cry, but this might actually just be because i feel more comfortable in my body as a girl now (and also the internalized "boys don't cry" slowly going away)~~ yeah no, i'm 4 months in and i cry alot more, and alot more easily.
^fthe urge doesn't come up as often. don't get me wrong, the climax still feels amazing, but i don't do it right after i wake up as often anymore
Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feminizing_hormone_therapy#Effects
^gpossibly immeasurable since i do laser hair treatment, so i have no idea if the result of slowed growth of body hair comes from hrt or laser hair treatment
^hthe same reason as g, im not sure if dysfunction occured due to hrt or anxiety meds

social medias
achivmnts
interests
blog/journal

instead of spending an ungodly amount of time explaining all of my interests like a typical transfem dork, im just gonna list all of them below
~~click on the images to learn more about my interest!!~~
_{(last updated: 8 april 2025)}

game-related

rpg/storytelling related
• undertale / deltarune
^{i discovered the fandom around 2017, basically 1 year before deltarune came out. asriel was and is still my fav character, and i still love the game and am looking forward to playing the rest of the deltarune chapters.}
^{i don't think ralsei will turn evil, but anything can happen, so right now i'm just bracing for the worst that can happen in the upcoming chapters.}
• oneshot
^{i think i started playing oneshot in mid 2019? back then i used to have a massive crush on plight (and i'm pretty sure he made me realize that im gay(?)). i have a few merch from the game, like 3 shirts and a niko plushie}
• omori
^{started playing the game around february 2021. weirdly enough, i connected with sunny more than i thought i would. back then, i was still really trying to figure out who i am. like oneshot, i've bought a few merch like eggplant plushie and a shirt from the game.}
^{i don't think basil is a bad person overall even if he literally hanged mari to fake the suicide to hide the accident.}
• stardew valley
^{to say that stardew valley didn't have a role in me realizing that i'm trans would be lying. i've heard of stardew valley for quite a while, and only started playing around 2021. immediately, i equipped the skirt because i thought it would be cute! i did not yet at all understand why i felt like this haha}
^{as of 12 april, i've yet to achieve perfection or even finish the community center, but one day i will. this game sinks so much time out of my life, i barely play it anymore because i have other things i wanna do so much}
^{abigail best girl abby4life}
• needy streamer overloadrhythm games
• osu!
^{my account}
• adofai
• trombone champ
^{i do not think trombone champ is a rhythm game, but it is here for clarity sake.}
• maimai
• pump it up
^{right around the end of december 2023, i was grinding Ss out of maimai, and i started feeling bored. i then asked myself "what if i started playing pump it up instead?" as the machine was right next to me. after i got an S on my first level 13 on maimai finale, i completely jumped ship.}
^{i think it's clear to alot of people that my progress was alot faster than for other people. by my 3rd day, i would've already passed my first s10, and in a week, my first s15 already.
my goal for 2023 was to pass a level 20 in either levels. i passed my first s20 on september 10th, and my first d20 19 days later.
some more notable passes are gargoyle full s20 and 86 full d23, which i've made a video out of.
as of now, my last and only goal is to pass paradoxx s20, which i have not passed yet. i've gotten a few broken As, but that's about it.}^{pump it up is a great game. gets me exercising, and i managed to prove to myself and many people that i am not a weak girl. i also did not let hrt pull me down, as i pushed myself to get gargoyle full s21 and 86 full d23. i've made many friends here, and i wish for many more awesome memories from this game, and the community.}

other games
• celeste
^{i'll write more about celeste later, but to say that it's my favorite game is an understatement.}
• minecraft
ㅤㅤ- hypixel pit
_{^{ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤi plan to type more about this minigame, but here's my player profile, i guess}}
ㅤㅤ- mcsr
ㅤㅤ- texture packs
_{^{ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤi plan to type more about my niche and bad hobby about texture pack making, but here's my profile, i guess}}
• growtopia
• super/open hexagon
^{hey did you know that i beat the last level in super hexagon at twice the speed? :D}
• five nights at freddy's series
• geometry dash
• phasmophobia
• unpacking
• terraria
• getting over it
^{i got a p good sub 5 run of getting over it :3 have a look!
i also got 50 wins}
•

other

tech related
• keyboard
^{i'm a bit of a nerd haha, as much as i would love to build my own keyboard, it's a little bit too expensive. my needs are also very specific, and the only keyboard i was able to find that fit me perfectly was nuphy air96. it had low profile, mechanical, tactile switches, and 96% keyboard layout.}
• keyboard layouts
^{i'm currently typing on "colemak dhcf", aka colemak with the dh variant and the keys c and f swapped.}
• everything apple stuff
• computer techlanguage related
^{it's better if you look at my wikipedia userpage for my info on languages.}
• linguistics
^{i know an abnormal amount of linguistic information like [paper couldn't think of any examples so this is here]. my knowledge in linguistics is also put into making conlangs; see below.}
^{i'm thinking of getting a degree in linguistics, if i can}
• conlanging
^{if you don't know what conlanging means, don't bother. 🙂}
^{one of the conlangs that is the closest to polished is itioma no kami. i'm currently working on a (draft of a) wikipedia article for itioma no kami, but it's currently very unfinished. i'm also working on another (currently unnamed) personal artlang, along with a simplified english, and an (to be discarded) auxlang.}other
• origami
^{i got inspired to start doing origami around early 2023 when i joined a server with an origami channel in it.}
^{have a look at some of my builds!:}
^{this one i made out of 50 baht banknotes (for a total of 50$)! it unfortunately collapsed on its own, but here's an image!}
^{have 3 other miscellaneous builds just cuz i think they're cool!: 1 2 3}
^{this one is like really big}
^{and this one was made out of thai lottery papers!}
• drawing
^{please don't judge my art harshly 👉👈 link}
• rubik's cube/cubing
• piano
^{as with most asians, i was put into piano lessons when i was in elementary. i think my parents said it was because i was playing a piano game app, and some cousin/my parents' friends thought i was actually playing the piano. so, they had a bright idea to let their yet to be daughter get into piano lessons.}
^{i would love to record myself playing some piano songs, but as of february 2024, i haven't yet gotten back into playing the piano nor have i uploaded any of my playing yet. i may, soon.}
^{i've started playing the piano once again! :D here are some recordings! 1 2}
^{more is soon to come, so subscribe and see when i'll post another piano cover!}
• learningblocks
^{if you know, you know. if you don't know, don't bother 🙂}
• wikipedia
• anime
^{check out my profile on myanimelist to get a list of animes i've watched!}
• music
^{just any songs in this playlist}
^{along with a few pop here and there, most are actually just game music.}
• pen spinning
• object shows